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Being Reflective...aka 2009 Wasn't a Bad Year

As the year is winding down, I've found myself thinking a lot about everything that has (or hasn't happened) over the course of this year.

I began 2009 turning 25, thus throwing my crazy head into a tailspin, putting myself into a somewhat quarter-life crisis. I began questioning everything about myself, I isolated myself for a bit, and still came up without answers. A freak-out of sorts. I got over it quickly though. Turning 25 is a huge thing, but I guess you can say that about any age. I taught myself to stop comparing my life and accomplishments to others that are around my age. Otherwise, I probably would have driven myself crazy. I convinced myself that I could change some things if I really wanted to, and I'm still working on it.

I didn't go to a lot of shows this year, in fact, I think I only went to two. Both were MC Lars shows (opening the Lilac Fest, and the WBER holiday show). At least I can say that both shows were awesome. I was forced to go on stage and dance at the BER show...yeah, I hid in the back. But, I got to experience it with one of my best friends!

I saw a lot of movies this year, both in theaters and via Netflix (which I joined this year also). There's still a few movies I want to see, but as of now, my favorites have been: Inglourious Basterds, The Hangover, 500 Days of Summer, This is It, and Star Trek. So many good movies came out though. My least favorite: Bruno, Extract, Terminator Salvation, Observe & Report and My Bloody Valentine (sorry Kristy).

The Fame Monster (Lady Gaga), The Blueprint III (Jay-Z), Embryonic (The Flaming Lips), Grand (Matt and Kim), and This Gigantic Robot Kills (MC Lars) are my favorite albums released this year, and I played the ish out of them.

Lets see...there was the time I was going to move in with a friend...then they stopped talking to me for no reason, then I was going to move in with another one, and then we weren't and then we were going to again. Then I had an epiphany and chose not to move out because I had an even better plan, which, (fingers crossed) will happen before the end of next year.

I met an awesome guy and allowed myself to just go with the flow (maybe all hope isn't lost after all). Ridiculously fun times. (Said boy was also supposed to come visit, then I got MONO!? WHO GETS MONO ANYMORE? I'm still bitter about that one.)

I got over stupid anxiety and (with some help) learned how to be more "in the moment".

I was in my sister's wedding and danced (which I never do), and sang along to "The Humpty Dance" and "Poison" while my family watched and laughed.

I became a proud owner/mother of an adorable lop bunny who just may be my new best friend.

I became closer with a few of my already close friends. I got to know some acquaintances better. I lost some people I once thought were friends. At least I now know who the real ones are.

I knitted up a storm, but still have yet to finish the almost-a-year-in-progress afghan.

I wrote more, I painted some, I got rid of a lot of things that were no longer useful to me (both emotionally and physically).

I took a semi-spur of the moment trip to Philly with Kristy. I'm hoping more travels are in my future, but that short Philly trip was a blast!

I think I learned a bit more about myself this year, and finally feel like I'm growing up, if that makes sense. I think I've shed a little of my shyness, and am becoming a little more comfortable being myself.

2009 was not a bad year, but I'm thinking 2010 will be even better...