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...Really?

I've been meaning to write lately, and though I've had a lot on my mind, I feel that I haven't had much to say.

I was talking with one of my co-workers a few weeks ago, about dating and whatnot. While I absolutely despise the act of dating, every now and then I find myself feeling "adventurous" and decide that since guys in real life hate me and never hit on me, why not sign up for a dating site?

Now, I've done the big sites before, and not once have I ended up going on a date with someone that was as cool as they sounded on the phone/online. Well, this time I signed up for plentyoffish.com. I wish I could put into words how awful people are on that site. Now, I know that a lot of people use such sites for random booty-calls and whatnot, but I figured I could at least find someone decent looking and cool enough to kick it with....and maybe a little makeout action. (Seriously though, I can't begin to count how many conversations I've had about how awesome making out is). Well, upon signing up and posting a photo, I got at least 20 different guys sending me such "awesome" messages like "hey cutie wanna chat?" I know, a message like that is seemingly harmless...but it irritates the hell out of me. I hate being called "cutie" or anything remotely related to that. The quality of these guys was absolutely amazing. I deleted my profile after three days.

I used to think that I needed someone in my life to make me feel valid, to feel complete. I abandoned that thinking years ago. Though, it would be nice to have someone around, I don't think I want anything like that now. I've got so much I want to accomplish, and so many things I'm working on. I was joking with my co-worker that maybe I just need a "friend with benefits" haha. Nooooooo...

I haven't been going out like how I was for a while. I used to go out pretty much every night, and it was nice. But, the past few months, its been few and far between. Plus, throw in me getting mono, and that only made it worse. But I'm over that now. I just need to get back in the swing of things.

On another note...

I've never really been one for regrets, but I'm still in "reflective" mode and thinking about things I would definitely change if I could do them over. Its kind of annoying. It's all about making positive changes.

I'm a procrastinator, but I'm really trying to make progress.

Anywho, I'm really excited that The Mighty Boosh guys are in the US! Unfortunately, the closest they came was to NYC...but I'm hoping now that they're over here, and seem to have a decent fan base, perhaps they will tour and come somewhere closer at some point. Hell, for The Boosh, I would go just about anywhere though. I totally wish I was at ComiCon this year. For them, and Kevin Smith, of course!

I feel that I have a lot I want to do. I feel stagnant. I've been picking up some overtime. Money is good. Hopefully, I'll be able to put it to good use...

I've been lacking motivation to work on the site lately. Mostly due to thumbnails. I'm trying to come up with a better way to display the photos. Pain in the ass, really. In due time, I guess.

I miss people. I wish I could see some people more than I do, or that some of them would pick up the phone once in a while. I have a few 'friends' who like to bitch that we never hang out and they miss me, yet never do anything about it when I give them an opportunity to change that. Its frustrating and makes me reevaluate why we're friends. Of course, on the other hand, I have numerous friends that I can go for months without talking to or seeing, and we pick up like we just spoke yesterday. I love that I have that with a good amount of my friends. I mean, I'm not clingy, but I do like to see my friends every now and then.

I'm about to go force myself to hop on the elliptical for a few. Good times!